Break the Silence

2002-09-22T10:24:00.000-05:00

Saints and Sailors

This is where I say I've had enough
No one should ever feel the way
That I feel now
I'm licking an open wound
Showing my display of bruises
And I don't believe that I'm getting any better
Any better..

Being here with the hopes that fall away
And I'm thinking awful things
I'm pretty sure that you would notice
And this apartment is starving for an argument
Anything at all to break the silence
Wandering my house like I never wanted out
And this is about as social as I get now
And I'm throwing away the letters I was writing you
Cause they will never do
I will never do
Never

Waiting here with hopes that fall away
And I'm thinking awful things
I'm pretty sure that you could notice
And this apartment is starving for an argument
Anything at all to break the silence

So don't be a liar
Dont say that everything's working
When everything's broken
And you smile like a Saint
But you curse like a Sailor
And your eyes say the jokes on me

But I'm not laughing
Your not leaving
Who do I think I am kidding..
I'm the only one left in this home

Being here with the hopes that fall away
And I'm thinking awful things
I'm pretty sure that you would notice
And this apartment is starving for an argument
Anything at all to break the silence

You smile like a Saint
But you curse like a Sailor
And your eyes say the jokes on me.

2002-08-08T20:25:00.000-05:00

I think it's okay for me to have this blog.. I mean, I'm not saying anything mean about anyone.. right? It's just somewhere to act like myself when I'm in a good mood. And that's okay.. Isn't it? ^_^;

2002-08-05T09:21:00.000-05:00

Everything is good again. Nobody is mad at me. *phew* It's so good to be home again. Know what sucks? A month of summer has passed. I haven't done ANYTHING I've wanted to! I haven't seen Chris, I haven't gone to the beach, me and the gang haven't had a get together, I haven't gotten to go to Chinatown. JEEZ! This reeks... Is that how you spell reek? reak.. reik... I suppose. I don't think it matters... Cause I don't think it's a real word. UUGGHHH I have butterflies in my stomach and they won't leave me be!! I'm hungry.. WANT MACCARONI.. OoooOOooo No must resist >< SAVE FOR LATER! I really really really really don't want Chris to move.. *sniffles* I'll be so sad. Do you know the most pathetic part? I probably wouldn't get over him. I mean - USUALLY you can get over people because you had a big fight, broke up and you have something negative to focus on that can make you dislike them more and more as time goes. But if he left, I'd just be so sad. Then he'd turn up years later and say "I STILL LOVE YOU!" And I would say "I LOVE YOU TOO!" And hug and embrace and LIVE TOGETHER IN HAPPINESS.. Okay I wish. I would settle just to see him ONCE this month. LONELINESS IS NOT FUN!!! Chris should get some sleep! And eat some food! He's like a giant baby that needs taking care of. He doesn't take care of himself!! THAT HUGE BABY!!!! Maybe I worry too much ;_; Maybe I don't worry enough. MAYBE I'M GOING INSANE!!!!!

2002-08-04T09:39:00.000-05:00

Psycho

Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho groupie GO!
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go - Stop.

Psycho groupie insane crazy
Psycho groupie go,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop
Stop your eyes from flowing

Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho groupie go,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go - Stop.
Psycho groupie insane crazy
Psycho groupie go,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop,
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop,
Stop in and watch your body fully drop
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,

So you want to see the show,
You really don't have to be a hoe
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy.

Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,
Psycho groupie go,
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Makes you really want to go - stop.
Makes you high, makes you hide,
Do you really want to think and stop,
Stop your eyes from flowing out

So you want the world to stop,
Rushing to watch your spirit fully drop,
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy,

So you want to see the show,
You really don't have to be a hoe
From the time you were a
Psycho, groupie, insane, crazy
(Repetative, ain't it?)

System of a Down : Toxicity

2002-08-04T09:33:00.000-05:00

The songs that I can mostly relate to today are....
"Unwanted" - Avril Lavigne
"Sweetness" - Jimmy Eat World
"Losing Grip" - Avril Lavigne
"Psycho" - System of a Down
"Wall in your Heart" - Shelby Lynne
"Innocent" - Our Lady Peace
"Take my Hand" - Dido

2002-08-04T09:11:00.000-05:00

I cut magazine ads and taped them all over the side of my wall. ^^ It looks awesome... Everyone should see it!!!

2002-08-04T09:10:00.000-05:00

Well, first off. This is my private public blog. I just find my blog itself isn't really outletting anything anymore. Hmm.. Maybe on account of everyone gets so mad by what I write - Even if there songs. Lol Maybe people just don't like me. WELL NOBODY WILL FIND ME HERE!!! AHAHA! ... Time to write bad things about everyone. HA! Just kidding. First off, I'm 16 and have some strange people in my life. The most important person is Chris, although he has a short-fuse and is REALLY stubborn and doesn't seem to listen, hes a sweety when hes his usual self, which I haven't seen in a while now. *sigh* Lauren is my best friend whos gone for the summer, her predictions are always right. No-L is my "friend" who I get angry with everyone 2 minutes. Just for the pure fact she talks to Chris and since I dont know her all that well, I get jealous and spitty easily. These are the people revolving around me at the moment. I don't understand? Chris yelled at me the other day for something I did. And even though I know it was wrong and I'm sorry, MAN hes dumb sometimes. I mean, I'm sorry and I understand your upset, but hurting my feelings won't do much good except drive me away. Then he screams and yells on his blog. Well, that kinda scares me away because I don't want to get yelled at you. Despite the fact I talk about him, think about him all the time, stand up for him no matter what hes doing, try to be the person he'd like, and tell him I love every time we talk, he doesn't think I care. *sighs* Maybe I'm doing something wrong. I don't know. First he gets mad, then he misses me, then he changes his password. *SIGH* I'm so very confused... I think I'll post some songs now. ^^ *whistles happily*